I have definitely been slacking with updating this blog! Being a mother is a full time job so needless to say, I have been a little busy!
The end of the year is upon us and it is so crazy to think back on last year's holiday memories when we had just announced closing escrow on our home and then literally a month later finding out we are expecting a baby! It has been an amazing year...Riley has been such a wonderful blessing to us and our families. I cannot get enough of her and I fall in love with her more every day!
I made a Shutterfly picture book (I got it for free!) and it took me a whole week to complete it! But I finally finished it and ordered it before the 12/31 deadline. So I thought I would share it with you all! ENJOY!
http://share.shutterfly.com/action/welcome?sid=1AasWLZy3YtHTQ&cid=SFLYOCWIDGET
love,
baby p <3
Thursday, December 26, 2013
Sunday, November 10, 2013
BAPTISM, HALLOWEEN, & THREE MONTHS
It has been a few weeks since my last post! Big things have happened since my last post: Riley was baptized at the end of October, she celebrated her first Halloween, and this past Friday she turned three months old!
Baptism:
Riley was baptized on October 27th at St. John Baptist de la Salle Church in Granada Hills. Someone asked why she got baptized at a young age; Ryan and I decided we wanted her to baptized after she received her two month vaccines because of everything she went through (her two week hospital stay) and having her baptized and dedicated to God after all of that means a great deal to us.
Her baptism experience was unforgettable. Lol. It was only a thirty minute baptism and there were probably 8-10 babies total getting baptized too, but Riley cried the WHOLE TIME...that was the longest thirty minutes of my life. I felt so bad for her...Ryan and I were doing everything we could to stop her from crying. She didn't sleep very well that morning before her baptism (for some reason she was fighting her sleep) so I knew she was going to be fussy; in addition, all of the people and the stimulation from everything was really bothering her. I felt like one of those moms that are on the airplane with their crying baby and people are annoyed and think that she is a bad mom because she doesn't know how to console her child. It really made me feel as if I was being harshly judged by the other parents there and I even thought I was a bad mom =/ However, Ryan reassured me that babies cry and it's okay...that I shouldn't listen to what other people think or say. I am so thankful I have him because he definitely brings me back to normal when I am feeling anxious or upset. i love you babe! :)
Halloween:
Riley having fun at the pumpkin patch..
picture w the Lehmans :)
her shoesies even had elephants on them! so cute!
Baptism:
Riley was baptized on October 27th at St. John Baptist de la Salle Church in Granada Hills. Someone asked why she got baptized at a young age; Ryan and I decided we wanted her to baptized after she received her two month vaccines because of everything she went through (her two week hospital stay) and having her baptized and dedicated to God after all of that means a great deal to us.
Her baptism experience was unforgettable. Lol. It was only a thirty minute baptism and there were probably 8-10 babies total getting baptized too, but Riley cried the WHOLE TIME...that was the longest thirty minutes of my life. I felt so bad for her...Ryan and I were doing everything we could to stop her from crying. She didn't sleep very well that morning before her baptism (for some reason she was fighting her sleep) so I knew she was going to be fussy; in addition, all of the people and the stimulation from everything was really bothering her. I felt like one of those moms that are on the airplane with their crying baby and people are annoyed and think that she is a bad mom because she doesn't know how to console her child. It really made me feel as if I was being harshly judged by the other parents there and I even thought I was a bad mom =/ However, Ryan reassured me that babies cry and it's okay...that I shouldn't listen to what other people think or say. I am so thankful I have him because he definitely brings me back to normal when I am feeling anxious or upset. i love you babe! :)
Here are some pics from Riley's big day:
So cute in her dress, but dang did he hate being in this thing. we literally took it off right after she got baptized by the priest! poor thing!
Riley and us with all of her godparents :)
We took Riley to her first pumpkin patch about two weeks before Halloween. Her older cousin Merc and his mom and dad met up w us too. Of course we only went there to take pictures! LOL
here are pics of Riley on Halloween dressed up in her costume. Yep, she was an elephant! lol
mommy elephant, baby elephant and daddy lion!!
with Ninang Crystal and Evelyn
with Ninang Jeanelle
3 months:
Gosh! My baby is already three months old. I am still in awe that Riley was growing inside of me and Ryan and I made her. She continues to make me smile every day and she makes me so incredibly happy even on her fussy days. lol. I am enjoying being home w her every day...I wish I could be a stay at home mom because the thought of going back to work makes me sad because I won't able to veg out w her and just be with her.
Riley is getting better at tummy time...I started putting her in her Bumbo seat to help her practice sitting up, but she is still a little wobbly..it's really cute. She also started turning from tummy to back! Riley smiles a lot now too especially when someone is talking to her...so she coos and babbles. ugh I can't take the cuteness sometimes I love it so much! We have come to learn her cues especially when it's time for a nap. She sleeps great at night and wakes up once for a feed and then one really early morning feed before or when Ryan leaves for work and then sleeps until 730 even 830! Riley is growing so fast and I wish she could stay a baby! wahhh!
here are more pics to share:
I have come to learn that being a parent is definitely rewarding, but at the same time challenging. I am constantly worried that I am not being the attentive mom I think I should be or I am clueless at times as to what Riley's needs are, and I google search everything!!! I criticize myself a lot especially now that I am a mom. I just want to be the best mom to her because I love her so much and would do anything for her. She is such a blessing in our lives.
love,
Riley <3
Wednesday, October 16, 2013
2 MONTHS OLD!
Riley is already two months old!
She had her two month doctor's visit last Friday and according to her doctor, she is a healthy and growing baby! She weighs 10 pounds 9 ounces and is 21 3/4 inches long; she is on track with her growth chart, which makes us extremely relieved and happy!
I was so concerned about her weight gain because she does not eat anymore than 2.5 ounces at a time as she is a big snacker/grazer. Riley likes to eat one ounce at a time (usually one to two hours apart) and we are lucky if she gets in two ounces in a feed. But her doctor says that is normal and as long as she is gaining weight, she should be fine! I have discovered that she is a good night sleeper in which she usually gets up once or twice in the middle of the night to eat and when I feed her she goes right back to sleep..so that's a really good thing since Ryan and I are able to sleep (not as well as before, but with a baby it's a good amount!)
She is pretty moody during the day, LOL. We have come to call them "baby tantrums" because she gets into a stink and after we have tried everything to soothe her (diaper change, feeding, rocking her, etc) it comes down to us having to swaddle her tightly and it is then that she calms down and finally takes her pacifier or feeding! Her doctor says this is normal and "she is allowed to be fussy"! haha. I found that amusing when she told me that. I mean it IS part of being a baby, but sometimes when she has these "tantrums" Ryan and I cannot help to feel that we aren't being good parents to her. I wish she could tell us what she wants, but I know that it is all a learning process and we have to continue to tend to all of her needs as much and best we can.
Riley is pretty playful these days though...she continues to smile, coo, and laugh. She is even able to play by herself for a bit. Her head control is great! She isn't a big fan of tummy time, but her head and neck control is pretty good for her age! She has come to recognize our voices, which is such a great feeling to know that the smile and coos she is making is from us talking to her =)
At her appointment, Riley also received her two month vaccines! It was not a fun day for her! We ended up giving her two doses of Tylenol after her appointment and fortunately she didn't spike a fever either! She was back to her normal self the next day and it didn't seem to have an affect on her feedings too!
Since she now has her vaccines, we are able to take her to get her ears pierced which will be done over the weekend...I already know she is going to hate it, but Ryan and I want it done for her. I most especially wanted them to be pierced before her baptism!
Here are pics of our little lovebug:
love,
Riley
She had her two month doctor's visit last Friday and according to her doctor, she is a healthy and growing baby! She weighs 10 pounds 9 ounces and is 21 3/4 inches long; she is on track with her growth chart, which makes us extremely relieved and happy!
I was so concerned about her weight gain because she does not eat anymore than 2.5 ounces at a time as she is a big snacker/grazer. Riley likes to eat one ounce at a time (usually one to two hours apart) and we are lucky if she gets in two ounces in a feed. But her doctor says that is normal and as long as she is gaining weight, she should be fine! I have discovered that she is a good night sleeper in which she usually gets up once or twice in the middle of the night to eat and when I feed her she goes right back to sleep..so that's a really good thing since Ryan and I are able to sleep (not as well as before, but with a baby it's a good amount!)
She is pretty moody during the day, LOL. We have come to call them "baby tantrums" because she gets into a stink and after we have tried everything to soothe her (diaper change, feeding, rocking her, etc) it comes down to us having to swaddle her tightly and it is then that she calms down and finally takes her pacifier or feeding! Her doctor says this is normal and "she is allowed to be fussy"! haha. I found that amusing when she told me that. I mean it IS part of being a baby, but sometimes when she has these "tantrums" Ryan and I cannot help to feel that we aren't being good parents to her. I wish she could tell us what she wants, but I know that it is all a learning process and we have to continue to tend to all of her needs as much and best we can.
Riley is pretty playful these days though...she continues to smile, coo, and laugh. She is even able to play by herself for a bit. Her head control is great! She isn't a big fan of tummy time, but her head and neck control is pretty good for her age! She has come to recognize our voices, which is such a great feeling to know that the smile and coos she is making is from us talking to her =)
At her appointment, Riley also received her two month vaccines! It was not a fun day for her! We ended up giving her two doses of Tylenol after her appointment and fortunately she didn't spike a fever either! She was back to her normal self the next day and it didn't seem to have an affect on her feedings too!
Since she now has her vaccines, we are able to take her to get her ears pierced which will be done over the weekend...I already know she is going to hate it, but Ryan and I want it done for her. I most especially wanted them to be pierced before her baptism!
Here are pics of our little lovebug:
love,
Riley
Thursday, September 26, 2013
6 & 7 WEEKS
Our baby girl is 7 WEEKS OLD TODAY! As with my pregnancy, this is going by just as fast! =(
My PICC line has been out since last week and I am feeling much better. Riley is doing well..she is still in her expected baby routine of sleeping, eating, and pooping! We noticed that she is more awake and slightly playful, even showing us smiles, coos, and the occasional giggle in her sleep! (LOL its true!) She will play with us for a bit and then she lets us know when it is time to swaddle and put her to sleep! Her patterns and routines are becoming more familiar to us, which makes us happy as we are able to tend to her needs when she "tells" us! =)
As a NICU nurse and having cared solely for babies for seven years, I had thought that being a mom would come easy to me. The past month has showed me that being a mom isn't just about knowing how to change a diaper, feed her, or how to calm her down. Of course, I know there is so much more to being a mother than that, but when it came to taking care of my own baby, my nursing perception was thrown out of the door! She has tested me in so many ways and at times I felt as if I was not being a good mom because I couldn't read her cues right away or what she was trying to tell me she needed/wanted. However, I have come to learn that Riley is mine to care for and love for; that I have to be there for her to make sure everything she needs is given to her--- and that takes time. There will be a lot of learning and growing for the both of us...and there is no where else I would rather be doing.
After she turned six weeks old, Ryan and I decided we would slowly start taking her out after putting her on house arrest since coming home from the hospital. We have been keeping our visitors to the very minimum because we do not want to risk her getting sick again. I have especially been very strict and paranoid about it; we have put antibacterial bottles in every room of the house and we make sure every person who touches her has washed their hands. We took her out to a restaurant; she was asleep for the majority of the time and so she was a good girl! We have taken her to other places as well and we are looking forward to more outings with her, but we have already learned that taking her out with us is definitely a challenge!
Ryan went back to work yesterday and needless to say, it was difficult and emotional. I was more sad about it because he has been with us every single day for six and a half weeks. I am sure it was just as hard for him to leave as well. =(
My first day alone with her went well...she ate every three hours which allowed me to pump while she was asleep and do a few things around the house. My mom came in the late afternoon so I could shower and cook while she watched over Riley.
I am trying to take in every single day with her because it really is going by so fast. The lack of sleep, the dishevelment, and the roller coaster of emotions have been tough, but WORTH IT. I would not have it any other way right now and it is all because of this little girl of ours <3
During one of her naps, she kicked her legs out! lol
My oldest and bestest friends Nikki and Monica came to visit. That is my PICC line on my right arm:
This is her face after bath time and crying because she hates baths! poor baby!
Our Riley burrito! She smells as good as she looks too! LOL
Tummy time:
Sleeping beauty:
love,
Riley <3
My PICC line has been out since last week and I am feeling much better. Riley is doing well..she is still in her expected baby routine of sleeping, eating, and pooping! We noticed that she is more awake and slightly playful, even showing us smiles, coos, and the occasional giggle in her sleep! (LOL its true!) She will play with us for a bit and then she lets us know when it is time to swaddle and put her to sleep! Her patterns and routines are becoming more familiar to us, which makes us happy as we are able to tend to her needs when she "tells" us! =)
As a NICU nurse and having cared solely for babies for seven years, I had thought that being a mom would come easy to me. The past month has showed me that being a mom isn't just about knowing how to change a diaper, feed her, or how to calm her down. Of course, I know there is so much more to being a mother than that, but when it came to taking care of my own baby, my nursing perception was thrown out of the door! She has tested me in so many ways and at times I felt as if I was not being a good mom because I couldn't read her cues right away or what she was trying to tell me she needed/wanted. However, I have come to learn that Riley is mine to care for and love for; that I have to be there for her to make sure everything she needs is given to her--- and that takes time. There will be a lot of learning and growing for the both of us...and there is no where else I would rather be doing.
After she turned six weeks old, Ryan and I decided we would slowly start taking her out after putting her on house arrest since coming home from the hospital. We have been keeping our visitors to the very minimum because we do not want to risk her getting sick again. I have especially been very strict and paranoid about it; we have put antibacterial bottles in every room of the house and we make sure every person who touches her has washed their hands. We took her out to a restaurant; she was asleep for the majority of the time and so she was a good girl! We have taken her to other places as well and we are looking forward to more outings with her, but we have already learned that taking her out with us is definitely a challenge!
Ryan went back to work yesterday and needless to say, it was difficult and emotional. I was more sad about it because he has been with us every single day for six and a half weeks. I am sure it was just as hard for him to leave as well. =(
My first day alone with her went well...she ate every three hours which allowed me to pump while she was asleep and do a few things around the house. My mom came in the late afternoon so I could shower and cook while she watched over Riley.
I am trying to take in every single day with her because it really is going by so fast. The lack of sleep, the dishevelment, and the roller coaster of emotions have been tough, but WORTH IT. I would not have it any other way right now and it is all because of this little girl of ours <3
During one of her naps, she kicked her legs out! lol
This is her face after bath time and crying because she hates baths! poor baby!
Our Riley burrito! She smells as good as she looks too! LOL
Riley in her Baby Bjorn for the first time:
Her first day out w mommy and daddy since her hospital stay (minus her doctor visit):
Tummy time:
Sleeping beauty:
love,
Riley <3
Wednesday, September 18, 2013
Mama P gets sick too...
As if we had not been through enough already, just less than a week of Riley being home I end up getting admitted as well!
Last Sunday night I was feeling pain on my left breast. I treated myself with warm compresses and also extra pumping to make sure I emptied my breasts well. I even attempted to breast feed Riley. After her feeding I continued having the pain, so I decided to lay down and rest it off. After about three hours it was still hurting and it was time to pump again. While I pumped I started having chills all over my body. I took two Ibuprofens and hopped into bed wearing sweats, a hoodies, and two blankets over me because I was freezing cold. When I woke up three hours later, my chills were gone but I felt super tired and weak. I pumped again and I still had breast pain; I thought I would have felt better after sleeping and pumping, but I just felt worse. Ryan took my temperature and I had a fever; on top of that I felt weak and short of breath. We called my mom and asked her to come over to watch Riley so Ryan could take me to the ER (this was at 4 am).
I was admitted and seen right away. They collected blood from me and I was given fluids through an IV. I was going to be sent home with oral antibiotics as the doctor diagnosed me with mastitis (infection of the breast tissue), but the infectious disease doctor at Kaiser wanted the ER doctor to admit me because I was displaying signs of sepsis/blood infection: fever, chills, increased heart rate, and my blood count was high even though they gave me a dose of antibiotics.
DEJA VU.
However, I only stayed in the hospital for a couple of days--- it was the worse two days. I had flu like symptoms, couldn't get out of bed without help, I went through FOUR IVs, my breast was swollen and red, I was on antibiotics, and I had to be away from Riley! =( I even missed her FIRST doctor's appointment. Needless to say, being a patient sucked! Thankfully, I did not have a blood infection (it was only mastitis). After two days, the doctor discharged me home, but I had to have a PICC line placed (a deep IV, like what Riley had when she was hospitalized) because I needed ten days of antibiotics three times a day on top of a second antibiotic every six hours! BUT I was able to go home and be with my baby.
I am one day away from finishing treatment. I have been to Kaiser seeing doctors and getting dressing changes on my PICC line every other day. Ryan and my mom took another week off from work to care for Riley and I. No one really knew of my hospitalization; it was enough to deal with Riley's and I didn't want to stress about telling everyone about it.
It has been one hell of a month and I am hoping and praying that this is it. No more hospital visits or getting sick. It is time to enjoy Riley and being a family <3
Last Sunday night I was feeling pain on my left breast. I treated myself with warm compresses and also extra pumping to make sure I emptied my breasts well. I even attempted to breast feed Riley. After her feeding I continued having the pain, so I decided to lay down and rest it off. After about three hours it was still hurting and it was time to pump again. While I pumped I started having chills all over my body. I took two Ibuprofens and hopped into bed wearing sweats, a hoodies, and two blankets over me because I was freezing cold. When I woke up three hours later, my chills were gone but I felt super tired and weak. I pumped again and I still had breast pain; I thought I would have felt better after sleeping and pumping, but I just felt worse. Ryan took my temperature and I had a fever; on top of that I felt weak and short of breath. We called my mom and asked her to come over to watch Riley so Ryan could take me to the ER (this was at 4 am).
I was admitted and seen right away. They collected blood from me and I was given fluids through an IV. I was going to be sent home with oral antibiotics as the doctor diagnosed me with mastitis (infection of the breast tissue), but the infectious disease doctor at Kaiser wanted the ER doctor to admit me because I was displaying signs of sepsis/blood infection: fever, chills, increased heart rate, and my blood count was high even though they gave me a dose of antibiotics.
DEJA VU.
However, I only stayed in the hospital for a couple of days--- it was the worse two days. I had flu like symptoms, couldn't get out of bed without help, I went through FOUR IVs, my breast was swollen and red, I was on antibiotics, and I had to be away from Riley! =( I even missed her FIRST doctor's appointment. Needless to say, being a patient sucked! Thankfully, I did not have a blood infection (it was only mastitis). After two days, the doctor discharged me home, but I had to have a PICC line placed (a deep IV, like what Riley had when she was hospitalized) because I needed ten days of antibiotics three times a day on top of a second antibiotic every six hours! BUT I was able to go home and be with my baby.
I am one day away from finishing treatment. I have been to Kaiser seeing doctors and getting dressing changes on my PICC line every other day. Ryan and my mom took another week off from work to care for Riley and I. No one really knew of my hospitalization; it was enough to deal with Riley's and I didn't want to stress about telling everyone about it.
It has been one hell of a month and I am hoping and praying that this is it. No more hospital visits or getting sick. It is time to enjoy Riley and being a family <3
Sunday, September 8, 2013
ONE MONTH OLD
Wow, we still can't believe it has already been a month since she came into our lives...and needless to say, WHAT A MONTH!
Despite Riley's two week hospital stay (poor baby spent half her life in the hospital), it has been a wonderful month thus far! We are continuing to adjust to being new parents...the one thing we definitely miss though is uninterrupted sleep! LOL But we have come to know her hunger cues and habits.
When I look at Riley it is still so surreal to me that she was growing inside of me. My love for her grows every time I look at her. She makes me so unbelievably happy and not a day goes by that I tell her that I love her...and I do, with every ounce of my being.
Ryan has definitely demonstrated how amazing of a father he is to Riley. He tends to her every need and he too falls in love with her every day. It is the most wonderful thing to see him be a dad to her and it makes me love him more and more.
Yesterday was my 29th birthday...and I have to say it definitely was my best birthday yet because Riley is in my life now. I kept it simple this year and had breakfast w Ryan and later, dinner with my family.
Riley has a doctor appointment tomorrow (a follow up from her hospital stay). When we left the hospital last week she weighed 8 lbs 5.5 ounces. She is growing so fast! I try to make every day with her memorable because obviously she is only a baby once and when she gets bigger, I know I will constantly wish she was still a tiny little human!
Here are some pictures to share with you all:
Family picture on my birthday..
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I love cuddling with her..
The best birthday present..
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Riley's one month pictures:
love,
Riley <3
Despite Riley's two week hospital stay (poor baby spent half her life in the hospital), it has been a wonderful month thus far! We are continuing to adjust to being new parents...the one thing we definitely miss though is uninterrupted sleep! LOL But we have come to know her hunger cues and habits.
When I look at Riley it is still so surreal to me that she was growing inside of me. My love for her grows every time I look at her. She makes me so unbelievably happy and not a day goes by that I tell her that I love her...and I do, with every ounce of my being.
Ryan has definitely demonstrated how amazing of a father he is to Riley. He tends to her every need and he too falls in love with her every day. It is the most wonderful thing to see him be a dad to her and it makes me love him more and more.
Yesterday was my 29th birthday...and I have to say it definitely was my best birthday yet because Riley is in my life now. I kept it simple this year and had breakfast w Ryan and later, dinner with my family.
Riley has a doctor appointment tomorrow (a follow up from her hospital stay). When we left the hospital last week she weighed 8 lbs 5.5 ounces. She is growing so fast! I try to make every day with her memorable because obviously she is only a baby once and when she gets bigger, I know I will constantly wish she was still a tiny little human!
Here are some pictures to share with you all:
Family picture on my birthday..
I love cuddling with her..
The best birthday present..
Picture with my birthday twin/little sister Aileen and Riley of course..
Riley's one month pictures:
love,
Riley <3
Friday, September 6, 2013
Our Riley bear got sick =(
Riley's first month in this world has been filled with so many emotions...it has literally been a rollercoaster for us as a family!
To start, Riley's arrival was a complete surprise to all of us! Ryan's parents were still on their European vacation so needless to say, they missed her birth. However, it was still a memorable birth day for her as both of our families were ever present that day and on her homecoming two days later at our house. Ryan and I were on such a happy high over this little girl of ours, but the next morning brought about bad news from overseas...
We found out that Ryan's mom became sick while on their cruise. They were only a few days away from being back home to us, but my mom in law ended up being hospitalized for 10 days in Italy due to unexpected health issues. My sister in law flew there to be at her side and to aid her while she was in the hospital. The three of us spent the next week and half at my in laws house, while Ryan and his brother took to hosting nightly rosaries with the rest of the clan and texting/talking/emailing with the family overseas and doing the best that they could to help with anything here in the U.S. (i.e. coordinating with doctors, insurance, work, flights, etc). It became emotional for all of us, especially for Ryan. To think he was at his most happiest just a few days before and now he was at his most saddest. To make matters worse, a little over a week after the news of his mom Riley was admitted to the hospital at just 12 days old (at this time, my mom in law was still in the hospital in Italy, but she arrived back here a few days into Riley's hospital stay) due to a blood infection and she required long term antibiotic treatment. Being a NICU nurse only made it worse...I was an emotional wreck and was now on the other side of my job: a mother. To think that the kinds of procedures that I personally did on other babies was now being done to my own child. I knew exactly what was going on in the treatment rooms they took her to have her blood drawn, start an IV, and get a spinal tap. It made me feel helpless and it made me sad that my baby was going through this =(
We were initially admitted to Kaiser Panorama City, but the pediatrician had us transferred to the PICU at Kaiser Sunset for "a higher level of care." Riley was a hard stick, meaning the nurses had difficulty placing an IV in her (they finally got one after an hour) and so the doctor felt it was best to take her to a hospital that had the equipment, staff, and the higher acuity of care to treat Riley if anything bad was to occur. We found out the next day that Riley was septic...turns out her blood culture was positive which required her to get treated with antibiotics. Doctors were unable to obtain any spinal fluid, which would have given us an idea as to how long her treatment would be (10 days for a blood infection or 14 days for meningitis). Since no one was able to get the fluid, the doctors felt it was best to treat her for a full 14 days as if she had meningitis.
Our stay in Kaiser was from August 20th to September 3rd (days 12 to 26 for Riley and coincidentally my due date!). It was the longest two weeks of our lives. Ryan and I literally lived there; we couldn't bear to be away from Riley, but our family came to visit and my mom was wonderful to come to the hospital on some days to watch Riley and relieve us so we could get out of the hospital. Ryan and I were constantly praying for Riley and halfway through our stay I came to realize that while being in this situation was probably one of the worse experiences to have to go through with our baby, the good thing that came out of it of it is that the three of us were together 24/7. We were able to be a family unit and we were able to constantly be with Riley in which we got to know her personality, her likes/dislikes, what kind of cries she has, etc. This was truly a test and a struggle for us as parents, but we got through it with God's grace. I also could not have done it without Ryan by my side; he has shown me how strong he is as a person and as my husband, but most importantly he showed me how wonderful and amazing he is as a father. I couldn't ask for anything more <3
We have been home since Tuesday afternoon; it has been so much better of course and we can tell that Riley is much more relaxed and happier to be at home. We are adjusting to being at home finally and we get to enjoy having daddy around for another week.
Here are some pictures that we took during Riley's hospital stay:
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Finally home with our sweet little love bug <3
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To start, Riley's arrival was a complete surprise to all of us! Ryan's parents were still on their European vacation so needless to say, they missed her birth. However, it was still a memorable birth day for her as both of our families were ever present that day and on her homecoming two days later at our house. Ryan and I were on such a happy high over this little girl of ours, but the next morning brought about bad news from overseas...
We found out that Ryan's mom became sick while on their cruise. They were only a few days away from being back home to us, but my mom in law ended up being hospitalized for 10 days in Italy due to unexpected health issues. My sister in law flew there to be at her side and to aid her while she was in the hospital. The three of us spent the next week and half at my in laws house, while Ryan and his brother took to hosting nightly rosaries with the rest of the clan and texting/talking/emailing with the family overseas and doing the best that they could to help with anything here in the U.S. (i.e. coordinating with doctors, insurance, work, flights, etc). It became emotional for all of us, especially for Ryan. To think he was at his most happiest just a few days before and now he was at his most saddest. To make matters worse, a little over a week after the news of his mom Riley was admitted to the hospital at just 12 days old (at this time, my mom in law was still in the hospital in Italy, but she arrived back here a few days into Riley's hospital stay) due to a blood infection and she required long term antibiotic treatment. Being a NICU nurse only made it worse...I was an emotional wreck and was now on the other side of my job: a mother. To think that the kinds of procedures that I personally did on other babies was now being done to my own child. I knew exactly what was going on in the treatment rooms they took her to have her blood drawn, start an IV, and get a spinal tap. It made me feel helpless and it made me sad that my baby was going through this =(
We were initially admitted to Kaiser Panorama City, but the pediatrician had us transferred to the PICU at Kaiser Sunset for "a higher level of care." Riley was a hard stick, meaning the nurses had difficulty placing an IV in her (they finally got one after an hour) and so the doctor felt it was best to take her to a hospital that had the equipment, staff, and the higher acuity of care to treat Riley if anything bad was to occur. We found out the next day that Riley was septic...turns out her blood culture was positive which required her to get treated with antibiotics. Doctors were unable to obtain any spinal fluid, which would have given us an idea as to how long her treatment would be (10 days for a blood infection or 14 days for meningitis). Since no one was able to get the fluid, the doctors felt it was best to treat her for a full 14 days as if she had meningitis.
Our stay in Kaiser was from August 20th to September 3rd (days 12 to 26 for Riley and coincidentally my due date!). It was the longest two weeks of our lives. Ryan and I literally lived there; we couldn't bear to be away from Riley, but our family came to visit and my mom was wonderful to come to the hospital on some days to watch Riley and relieve us so we could get out of the hospital. Ryan and I were constantly praying for Riley and halfway through our stay I came to realize that while being in this situation was probably one of the worse experiences to have to go through with our baby, the good thing that came out of it of it is that the three of us were together 24/7. We were able to be a family unit and we were able to constantly be with Riley in which we got to know her personality, her likes/dislikes, what kind of cries she has, etc. This was truly a test and a struggle for us as parents, but we got through it with God's grace. I also could not have done it without Ryan by my side; he has shown me how strong he is as a person and as my husband, but most importantly he showed me how wonderful and amazing he is as a father. I couldn't ask for anything more <3
We have been home since Tuesday afternoon; it has been so much better of course and we can tell that Riley is much more relaxed and happier to be at home. We are adjusting to being at home finally and we get to enjoy having daddy around for another week.
Here are some pictures that we took during Riley's hospital stay:
Picture of the three of us before finally going home:
Finally home with our sweet little love bug <3
love,
Riley <3
P.S. Thank you to all of our family and friends for your prayers and thoughts during Riley's stay in the hospital. Also, thank you for keeping Ryan and I fed and not letting us eat the hospital food lol!
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